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UNDAUNTED
For a few very hard years this word was my mantra.
The word means
-undismayed; not discouraged; not forced to abandon purpose or effort
-undiminished in courage or valor; not giving way to fear
But the truth is, I was often dismayed by everything that had taken place, and I did battle discouragement. I battled fear and doubts. I hurt and was angry, and sometimes "undaunted" sounded more like a mockery than a mantra, and I was determined to be real about all of it in these posts, thus the name, Undaunted Reality. More than that, though, I was determined to live undaunted, not because I'm so great or strong, but because my God is, and no matter what this world looks like, He is the only reality that matters.
I pray I live the reality of Him beautifully undaunted.

Saturday, July 22, 2017

Sabbath Blessings

Blessed Sabbath to each of you.
May you find rest for your body, mind, soul, and spirit.
May you rest in Him.
May you worship Him for He is worthy.
May you not tell Him all the stuff you didn't like about your week or don't like about your life but tell Him all the beautiful things you love about Him.
May it not be a day of ritual, but a day of intimacy between lovers.
May you find uncondemning truth in Him, even when that truth is that you need to repent of something.
May you find peace in Him and couage to address the things in yourself that destroy your peace.
Shalom,
Jerri

Thursday, July 20, 2017

Because I'm Really Not Entitled to Mercy...Please Be Merciful

Yesterday morning I visited the Social Security office to change my name on my card. The woman who helped me was great. She was also left handed. I noticed this because I noticed the scars on her right arm and hand and the fingers that pointed in unusual directions. She could do some things with that arm, but for the most part, it wasn't useful, not like most of us use ours.
Last night I spent three hours mowing less than 1/4 of my yard with a push mower. I have no clue how many times I had to restart the mower because it kept bogging down and dying. At one point, it was dark, I was sore, my body ached, and the mower died...again, and I blurted out, "God, can't I please just have easy once?"
First, I thought about the "expected 2 hour wait" at the SS office that ended up being 25 minutes. Wasn't that easier?
In fact, I had finished all of the day's to do list and most of the next day's to do list, so surely there had been a lot more easier.
But then the simple truth came to me. I have two functional arms and two functional legs, and although they hurt so bad right then, those hurting appendages made it a lot easier to mow than having only one arm or a less than fully functining hand or no legs or legs in casts.
The truth is I had an amazing day yesterday, and I was whining because I was having to work to mow.
Talk about a pathetic entitlement mentality.
Even as I tell you this, I feel embarrassed at the idea I don't think I deserve to work hard or I should somehow be exempt from hard stuff. What a pathetic, unbiblical, ungodly, and totally un-Jesus mentality.
And it isn't even about the woman whose hand didn't work, and I have it better than her. No. It's about the reality that I was focusing on that hard thing and had totally lost sight of all the easy in the day. How utterly shallow of me to lose all the blessings of my day in the shadow of inconvenience.
God have mercy. Do not hold my pathetic selfishness against me, and have enough mercy not to let me hold onto that pathetic shallow entitlement mentality.
--Jerri L Kelley--

Wednesday, July 19, 2017

Because Our Over-Packed Day Needs to be Packed with Him

If you are like me, today is one of those days when I stuffed so much in my calendar to get done my poor calendar popped a proverbial button! So while we are racing time like mad people let's stop the race and take some time to step out of the madness.
Pick up your phone or your Bible or wherever your scripture is.
Open it.
Close your eyes, breathe deep, and let it out.
 
Do not fear, for I am with you;
do not be dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthn you and help you;
I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
Isaiah 41:10
Now, lay it on the altar. Lay YOU on the altar.
 
Father, I need your help. I have this crazy day, and some of the stuff I need to get done requires being outside several hours, and it is hot and humid, and I'm not acclimated for this. I need your physical strength and help to get that done.
 
I also need your help in planning strategically. These things on my list aren't negotiable. They really need to get done, and I need your help to know the order that is most efficient.
 
I also need your help to remember that my all-important list, isn't. I have a horrible tendency to get so focused on doing things that I forget the imnportance of my people, and, Father, my people are priceless. My relationship with them is priceless. Help me to not be so list-focused or stressed or flat out cranky and rude that I hurt those people's feelings or make them feel unimportant in any way. Make sure in our planning that we make time for them.
 
Thank you for being the other part of me that is working on this.
Thank you for the physical strength to do all I need to do.
Thank you for the amazing people you put in my life.
Thank you for being my strength and help.
Thank you for holding me up when I'm tired.
 
Before I stopped and talked with you, I was afraid.
 
I was afraid I wouldn't get everything done. I was afraid I wouldn't have time for my kids.
I was afraid my atitude would stink because I got all stressed out.
I was afraid I would handle this packed day like I've handled others, and that wasn't pretty.
But now, I'm really not afraid. I'm peaceful and calm, and a smile is on my face because I'm not doing this by myself, in my own wisdom or in my own strength. Thank you for being with me.
 
I love you. Show me how I don't love you well so I can repent and you can show me how to love you better.
 
In the Almighty name of Jesus I pray,
 
Amen

Tuesday, July 18, 2017

Calling It What It Is

Yesterday I stood before a judge, took an oath, made a petition, answered questions, and it became official. In less than two minutes, my name went from a hyphenated blend of two lives to an unhyphenated statement of self.

There was no audience. No round of applause. No major celebration.

Just the kids and I walking out of the courthouse with the paperwork in hand that acknowledged a major change in my life had occurred.

And it was major. In fact, I told my friend Scott, "This is epic for me."

So why did I feel so sad when I had been looking forward to this for a long time?

I knew it didn't feel like grief, but I wasn't really sure what it did feel like. Until early this morning when I couldn't sleep so I asked God what it was and took time to write it out in my journal.

I felt sad because I knew most people wouldn't understand how epic my name change is and certainly not why. I know people would this is my way of letting go of my late husband or letting go of a marriage that didn't work. Some folks even said as much, but that isn't it. I let go of that a few years ago. Really, I'm so over that.

I knew some people would think this is my way of showing my late husband I don't need him or his name and I can move on without him and...really, how utterly shallow is it to need to show a person in the past that I am moving to the future without them? Kind of a lie, isn't it? I mean, if I'm still that hung up on what happened in the past, I'm not really moving toward a future anyway. And how much more shallow and flat out pathetic to need to show a deceased person I can live without him. Seriously. That is some seriously messed up stuff there. No, that isn't it.

I didn't change my name because of what I'm leaving behind. This isn't about running from or escaping the past. It seems to me that folks who do something drastic to run from the past usually end up running right back into it anyway. Nope. That wasn't it.

I actually changed my name for simpler reasons than that. I changed my name back to my maiden name because of what I am moving into and toward.

My maiden name, Kelley, is Gaelic. It means "warrior." Frankly, this suits me. It suits my personality. In fact, it is perfectly defining of who I am.

If you ask my kids, they will tell you, I am momma bear to the core, and no one messes with my cubs, but it isn't just my cubs. It is anyone God puts into my care. I am fiercely protective of those who cannot protect themselves.

My volunteer work the last six years has focused on rebuilding lives of domestic violence victims, seeing warriors heal from trauma and PTS, teaching personal protection to people, and loving people and walking with them through hard places. I am what Lt Col Dave Grossman refers to as a "sheepdog". It isn't just what I do. It is who I am.

In six weeks I will return to college and get my degree in criminal justice to go along with the degree I already have in sociology. My goal is to became more equipped to be a more influential and more effective sheepdog. As my kids say it, I am taking my momma bear-ness and protecting a whole other group of "kids" God has ready for me.

Changing my name is a rite of passage, and rites of passage are not there so someone can escape what they used to be. A rite of passage is stepping into a new a thing. It is taking what a person has already become and moving them to the next thing. It is forward motion driven by expectation, anticipation, and hope. It is marked by a nervous confidence of knowing you are ready for a new identity because you can handle the weight of it.

A rite of passage is no small thing.

Kelley. Warrior.

I chose to return to that name because I want the weight of it. I want the weight of being a sheepdog. I want the weight of being a warrior. I want to wield the power that goes with this identity.

And it isn't because I'm proud or my ego needs stroking. It isn't because I need a title or a uniform. It's because I look around me and see "cubs" who desperately need a momma bear, and the very core of me prays simply, "Give them to me. I'll take care of them. I want them." That is who I am. It is that simple.

Yeah, changing my name has nothing to do with who I'm not anymore. It has everything to do with who I am, and who I am...well, the name speaks for itself.

Loving being me,

Jerri Kelley

Monday, July 17, 2017

When a Bad Hair Day is Really Isn't About the Hair at All

Right now in Texas humidity is running high. It makes for nearly unbearable days walking the dog and worse days mowing the yard. It also makes for some really bad hair days, and we all know about those, right? Except for some, that derisive look in the mirror on bad hair days has nothing to do with hair. It's what is IN their head, not on it that is the real mess. I know. And I want you to know even when you can't control that out-of-control on your head, you can control what is IN your head. 


For those who sent me feedback on the last video, THANK YOU! I already had this recorded, so I'm not sure if I really fixed anything, but keep the feedback coming, and I'll keep working on this end. Thank you so much for being my assistants on this journey. You are priceless!!!

Friday, July 14, 2017

When Your Faith is Too Weak to Find God, Let His Strong Faithfulness Find You

It's Friday, and the week is fading behind us. Maybe it went like you hoped, maybe it went worse than you could imagine. If it went better, I'm excited for you. If it went worse, I won't pour salt in your pain and tell you all things work together for your good, and I won't promise God has good things planned for you because I've read the Bible and I've see what "good plans" worked together in the lives of Josheph, Daniel, Moses, and Jesus. Sometimes the good stuff doesn't feel good. It feels spirit-crushing and heart-stopping bad. What I will tell you is I've walked through some of that bad, and I hated it while I was in it, but even then, God didn't hate me. God didn't hate the honest pain. He didn't hate the burning tears. He didn't hate the confused questions. God isn't afraid of how hard you can be to deal with when you are going through hard places. His love is too beautiful to be drowned in the pit of your ugly mud-ness. And if you are trying to find your way too Him, know He is, right now, finding His way through all the ugly and the pain and the hard to find you. He hasn't left you, and believe me, you need Him now more than ever. Not because it makes sense, but because it doesn't. Because your human mind and human heart will never come through some kinds of pain without a Hand carrying you. You may still be breathing in 9 years without HIm, but you won't be alive. You won't be through the pain. Time doesn't heal. Only the hand of God heals.
 
And I know, it is easy to blame Him and question Him and accuse Him, but ultimately, the only way through the hard is to trust Him. YOu may be wondering how you do that in the midst of where you are. Well, I'll tell you what I did. I asked Him to help me. I asked Him to increase my faith. I asked Him to increase my trust, and I asked Him to give me things along the way to remind my forgetful humanness that He is with me. And you know what He did? He said, "Okay." No condemnation. No shame. No guilt. No, "How could you be so lame?" Just, "Okay. I've got you."
 
See, God knows we are mud. He knows we are frail, and He never demands us to be strong all the time. Instead, He invites us to come to Him because He knows we are weak. In our weakness, He is strong. In my weak trust, He is a strong presence. In my weak faith, He is a strong reminder. When I am to weak to find Him in my own faith, He is strong enough to find me with His faihtfulness.
 
I pray today, if you can't find Him in your faith, you would let Him find you in His faithfulness.
 
Blessings and shalom,
Jerri
 
--Jerri L. Kelley--

My Fitness Journey: Gym Day

I am venturing into the world of vlogging. This is my second video. The first one got erased because I didn't think you would like the neck cramp that came with keeping your head tilted at a 90 degree angle to watch it. (sigh....) Between us, I'm nervous. This is new, and...well, I don't want to make a fool of myself, BUT, I'm going to put this up here for two reasons:
1. We all have those low motivation days when there are a million other things we want to do, and
2. Being afraid of looking foolish is one of the top reasons people don't do amazing things or things they have always wanted to do or just trying something different. I'm learning to embrace the possibility of looking foolish because you know what? I have never died from looking foolish, and, it just might turn out that I end up doing something amazing.
Stay on the journey!
Jerri


 
Special thanks to my favorite WonderGirl who helped me navigate YouTube and create my own channel. What would this mommy blogger do without you?!

Thursday, July 13, 2017

Baking with Jerri: Banana Bread

Okay, seriously, if you knew how ironic the words "baking with Jerri" are, you laugh so hard it would wear out your serotonin factory.

As I have said before, I am not a natural cook. I was not in the kitchen with my mom, and while my grandma let me can anything and everything with her, that was not daily meals. However, somewhere along the road, I found a love of baking. I know some folks kind of make up their recipes on the fly, but I'm not at that level. I need a recipe, and for those of you who also need a recipe, pull up a mixing bowl, and let's have some fun.

Today, I'm making banana nut bread. Why? Well, mostly because I was going to make some banana pudding for an event earlier this week, except that didn't happen, and the bananas got overly ripe, and who in their right mind is going to eat an overly ripe banana? (eewwww) So, I decided to make banana bread. First of all, it's easy. Second, I make muffins and leave some out in a tightly closed bowl for the kids to grab them when they want. Third, I freeze some of them for easy snacks. Just heat and eat.

Today I am using a recipe from one of my baking books. I looked up several recipes, and they all included ingredients I don't keep on hand, like buttermilk and wheat flour. I'm not going to buy specialty items because they tend to go bad, so I went with what I had.

Now you may be wondering about that bottle with the mix and the muffin pan. Yes, that is rum. Why? Two reasons:
1. I tasted the batter, and it tasted a bit fermented to me, so I decided to add some rum and fantasize about Bananas Foster.
2. I have two kids with headcolds. My God-loving grandma used to give us hot totties when we had colds and flu. It didn't kill the virus, but it relaxed you so you could breathe and sleep. So I figured a hot totty in muffin was perfect. Rum for relaxation and bananas for nutritional value. Good stuff. (Yes, that is my story, and I'm sticking to it.


 One of the things I love about banana bread is that it makes great gifts for neighbors and friends or for church functions. However, a lot of folks are allergic to various kinds of nuts, so I cut those out. This time, however, I filled up two pans with batter without nuts, and then I added pecans to the rest of the batch. Why pecans? Because I didn't have walnuts. (look at me going rogue and changing the recipe on the fly!).
The recipe I used:

Banana Bread
2 1/2 cups all-purpose flour
2 teaspoons baking powder
3/4 teaspoon salt
1/2 teaspoon baking soda (yep, powder and soda)
1 1/2 cup mashed bananas (3 large ripe bananas)
1/4 cup milk
2 teaspoons vanilla extract
1/2 cup butter or margarine (1 stick, softened)
1 cup sugar
2 large eggs

1. Preheat oven to 350 degrees F. Grease 9"x5" metal loaf pan. In medium bowl, stir together flour, baking powder, salt, and baking soda. In small bowl, stir together bananas, milk, and vanilla until blended.

2. In large bowl, with mixer at medium speed, beat butter and sugar until light and cream. Beat in eggs, 1 at a time. Reduce speed to low; add flour mixture alternately with milk mixture, beginning and ending with flour mixture (I considered ending with milk just to see what happens), scraping bowl occasionally.

3. Pour batter into prepared loaf pan. Bake 2 hour 10 minutes, or until toothpick inserted in center of bread comes out clean. Cool loaf in pan on wire rack 10 minutes; remove from pan and cool completely on rack.

Note: I baked my muffins for 15 minutes, and I like how they came out. And, yes, of course I tried one. How else are you going to know it is good. You don't want to give away icky muffins, do you?






 The ones on the left are the nutty ones. I just chopped my pecans up with a knife on a cutting board, but you can use a chopper or small food processor. I also mashed the bananas with a pastry cutter because it was easy, but I have used a potato masher, and that works well. I don't have to chase them as much as I do when I use a fork.

The ones on the right are the healthy hot totties. Unless you have a high tolerance for alcohol, you won't remember eating them, but I'll tell you how great they were later. ;-)

Seriously, you need to come over for coffee. These are so good!

I hope you've enjoyed our bonding over baking. Remember, when it comes to something you've always wanted to do but...well, you know.... Just because you've never done it, doesn't mean you can't do it. It just means you need to try.

Until next time....


Saturday, July 8, 2017

Divorced--Some Personal (Impassioned) Thoughts

I just finished reading and sharing the post about why God hates divorce. It hit a pretty solid nerve in me for a few reasons.
I grew up in a church that believed if you were divorced, you were not eligible to do anything in the church as far as leadership goes. You couldn't be a pastor EVER or lead a Bible study or even teach children's classes. The Catholic Church acts like divorce is the unpardeonable sin, too. You can be a killer and get absolution and take commuion. You can be a serial rapist, get absolution, and take communion. But if you are divorced, sacraments are off limit to you unless the church decides it never counted. According to my Bible, blasphemy is the unpardonable sin, so I really don't get where these unrighteous, ungodly mindsets and theologies come from except someone got a high and mighty attitude and stood in judgment of a sin they weren't human enough to commit.
I know. I know. I said in the past I was going to keep my posts encouraging and helpful, so where is that part?
Well, I am in the unusual position of understanding divorce and being a widow. My husband and I were in the process of divorce when he died. So I know the devastation of someone who said, "I do," deciding, "I don't and never really did," and I know the shock of burying some and stepping into a life you never expected to live. I often speak to the widow side, but right now, it's about the divorced side, and it isn't about my husband.
When my husband moved out and asked for a divorce, I blogged through it. The blogs are still out there if you want to read them, and they are ugly real like most Christians and holier-than-thous would ever want to read, and I almost quit writing beccause really, who wants to stand naked for all to see every bruise and battered place while you hurt beyond anything you ever imagined you could? But two pastors asked me to keep writing...keep being raw...keep being real...because seminary may teach how to talk to divorced people but not how tp love and minister to them, and they wanted to know. Plus, most folks going through a divorce are in shambles enough. We don't need the hateful judgment of the church that is supposed to love us. So we don't talk. We don't even attend. And we are judged for that, too.
And here is the truth the people in the pulpits don't like to say: any of you could be divorced just like us if you had been in the situations we were in. YOU and your right living are not the only reasons your marriage is intact. It's because someone else chose to work their butt's off to keep it intact as well. Not all of us are so blessed.
And for those who are divorced, hear me loud and clear: God loves you. You are not beyond healing or restoration or the very deepest desires of your heart. A person failed. God has not. Cling to Him. He still gives happy endings and you have as much reason to get one as anyone else. :-)
Stay on he journey and keep believing!

Thursday, July 6, 2017

Dear lovelies, today I get it. I get why single parents who do not have strong faith or strong suppoer group give up and simlpy get from day to day. After a month of one-thing-after-another, today was another big one. And if I may be honest, I am blooming tired of the crap. I am tired of things happening. I'm tired of making decisions. I am tired of trying to rearrange schedules. I am tired of trying to fit one more thing in. I am tired of people needing anything from me. I am tired of married people in similar life places telling me they understand.
BUT, this morning I got home from walking Semper, which went badly due to two dogs her size being out down the street, swept and mopped the floors where she is still not potty trained at night, and took my shower. I stood in the shower and this is what I said:
 
Lord,
I don't know how single moms work multiple jobs, stress about finances, and raise their kids well. I don't see how they can possibly have the energy. I don't have the demands they do, and I am...tired. I don't know how anyone who doesn't have faith in your goodness walks through this world. I think I would quit getting out of bed because what hope do those parents or those people have of things getting better? I don't know.
Because this is what *I* know:
 
I know you are my strength.
I know your character, and your love for me is solid and kind and trustworthy.
I know you are my fortress and strong tower, and the storms and onslaughts are going to come, but they have to go through you, not me, and nothing can get through you.
Things may not go the way I want, but it'll be okay.Sometimes it isn't that you don't work; it's that you don't work the way I want, but I trust you, even if I get disappointed.
I know you are my wisdom, so I'll make the decisions that need to be made.
I know you are my source of knowledge, so I will prioritize as things need to be ordered.
I know you meet my every need, so even if I don't get everything I want, I'm still in the best place possible...with you.
I know not everyone gets it, but I know they love me, and I really, really am so thankful for that.
I know there are people praying for me and my family that I don't know about, and you have us covered.
I know what it is like to hurt so badly that I have nothing to give anyone, so even when I feel like i have nothing else to give, I really am thankful people know I am here for them and care...because I am and do.
I know this is a hard place, but it is just a place. My faith is being built, and my character is being hoaned, and I am learning peace in the chaos.
And I know you always provide a helping hand when i need it or am not to proud to ask for it.
I know this is stretching me hard, but growth is preparation for something bigger and I need the growth to step into something else.
I also know you aren't freaked out by a hard cry, but it would be nice if my sinuses were not so congested afterward. Just saying.
Thank you for who YOU are because you are always someone I can lean into and sumberge myself into and rest. You are my provider in every way. You are my strength and safe place, and I am undone by how gloriously wonderful you are. I love you. Amen.
 
--Jerri L. Kelley--

Wednesday, July 5, 2017

Being Courageous Despite Feeling Courage-Less

Hey, loved ones, let's talk some beautiful truth. Courage isn't something you feel. It is something you do. Being courageous isn't feeling a warm fuzzy or all strong and together. It isn't even the absolute certainty you are doing it right.
 
Being courageous is moving toward answers when the questions are hard.
 
Being courageous is shaking in your boots but step in front of the giant you have to take down anyway.
 
It is choosing to do someting when you wonder if anything will help.
 
Being courageous is believing it can get better and acting on that belief.
 
None of us ever feel courageous. The most courageous people feel scared and even terrified. They feel like they can't breathe or that they are doing to vomit or that they just might be crazy for doing this "acting not scared" thing. It isn't that courageous people feel none of those things.
 
We just feel the determination not to let fear dictate our actions or lives most.
YOU are courageous.
 
Beautiful courageous ones, God be with you in your fight. May He give you strength, comfort, and wisdom.
 
Stay on the journey!
 
--Jerri L. Kelley--

Monday, July 3, 2017

My Fitness Journey: A 3-pound Weight Gain in 2 days??!! What??!!!

This morning is Monday, and I weighed, and before I ever stepped on the scale, I could feel it.

My hands are swollen. My face is swollen. My feet are swollen. Gonna be fun pushing them into my walking shoes in about 10 minutes.

So I knew the scale was not going to be my friend today. Sure enough. I weigh three pounds more than I did Friday. Now this is where a lot of people get really frustrated and quit because they've been depriving themselves of food for however long, they've been working their bums off, and now the scale turns on them. So, why bother?

Here is why.

First of all, a person's weight can fluctuate as much as 5 pounds on any given day.

That means I could still weigh what I did two days ago but hormones, the weather, salt, and other things can cause my body to retain water. It could have been that my 3 pound weight loss last week was aided by some dehydration when I was on the scale, so it showed I weighed a bit less than I really did. It could also mean my body is still processing the delicious food I ate late last night.

The point is there are lots of things that can cause my weight to bounce around, so I'm not going to freak out because I'm puffy today.

Second, I trust my plan.

I have been doing all the right things. I walked 4 miles a day five days last week. I was in the gym. I kayaked. I worked in the yard. I scrubbed the house. I was active burning calories, and I have been under my calorie target everyday. Everything I'm doing should be leading to weight loss, so I am going to trust that it is. I am going to stick with the plan, trust this is a hiccup, and squeeze my puffy feet into my shoes and go walk another four miles.

Now, let's talk about the reality of my eating the last two days.

Yesterday I attended a graduation party, and it was so much fun! I ate coleslaw and BBQ and potato salad and a roll and a piece of cake and chips. Right now some of y'all are thinking that explains my three pounds. No, it doesn't. Each pound is 3,500 calories. I promise you my southern comfort meal was not 10,000+ calories. Not to mention I spent a lot of the time there on my feet walking around and helped clean up after the party, so I burned some calories, too. But, there was a lot of salt involved, and salt makes me puffy. I drank regular Dr. Pepper, and it always makes me puffy. Sometimes it makes it so I can't wear any of my rings which are usually slightly large on me.

So do I think what I ate yesterday contributed to my weight? Yes, but not for the reason a lot of people think. I am not "fatter" today because of what I ate. I am puffier because of what I ate, and that comes off pretty quickly if I go back to less salty food choices.

Now, other factor I have to consider is the humidity right now. We have storms in the area. The sky is thick with grey clouds, and the humidity is 80%. I am going to gain weight. Years ago my late husband and I would make trips to see family in Louisiana. It was guaranteed I would gain 5 pounds while I was there, and within 2 days of being home, I would be back to normal. When this front is past, I will drop a few pounds within 24-hours, so I'm not worried.

Finally, do I feel bad about yesterday's glorious indulgence? Not remotely.

My trainer and I have an agreement. Whatever changes I made has to be sustainable for the rest of my life. The simple fact is if I am going to a party, I'm going to eat the party food. If I go on vacation, I'm going to eat vacation food. The honest fact is I may not lose as much that week or any at all, and on vacation, I may gain some. I'm okay with that. It just means I need to step back into good choices when I get home, put in a bit more cardio work, and know I can make a chance and am not a victim to vacation or party or wedding or...This is real life. I am going to have a real life. And sometimes real life means really weird weight swings. Just is what it is, and I'm not worried about it.

I hope your Monday is great! God bless you on your journey to accomplish your goals!

Enjoy the journey!
Jerri

Sunday, July 2, 2017

Why I Talk about God "All the Time"

I received a personal message from someone I've honestly been friends with a LONG time, and he said, "Jerri, you know I love you, but I cannot be friends on Facebook. All your talk about God just...I just don't understand why you have to make everything about God."
 
First, I thought it was very kind of him to tell me why he was unfriending me. Truly.

 
Second, I will say here what I said to him--because everything I am, everything I hope to accomplish, everything I want my life to point to is ALL about GOD.

 
Now, having said that, I will be the firs to tell you if you don't want a church with hypocrits, don't come to mine because I'm there. I've already ruined it for you. I don't get it all right. Not close. It is kind of a accepted thing among my friends that "I am God's favorite". Sometimes, I cannot even make those words come out of my mouth because I don't deserve to be His anything. And no one knows how many times I pray for Him to help people realize that major ugly thing is all on ME and not HIM.

 
I don't talk about God "all the time" because I'm perfect or because I'm super spiritual or because I have my crap together. I talk about God all the time because He covers my imperfections, because He is faithful when I'm not spiritual at all, and because He loves me and invites me to Him when I am coming completely apart and have nothing to offer except a lot of ugly.

 
I talk about God all the tmie because I don't have all the answers...but I know with all I am HE is always THE answer.

 
I don't talk about God all the time because of who I am.
I talk about God all the time because of who He is.

--Jerri L. Kelley--